No sleep for the weary

My oldest monkey has been in Indianapolis for the past 4 days with her band competition and my youngest has been here with me(sort of...she has been at a friend's house in the neighborhood). I haven't slept more than 4 hours at a time in the past 4 months and I don't really see that changing anytime soon. Right now I am working nights for pay and precepting at night for a school requirement (for free) so my sleep/wake cycle is quite crazy and I don't have any nights off. My children have been rather supportive because they know this is a benefit for all of us, mostly them. School is almost over and I cannot wait for a little more time for ME! Time for me to actually read a regular book, take a run, and do some crafty things like I used to. Marching Band is over now and I don't know what Thing 1 plans on doing for an activity this fall. Thing 2 is done with Football Cheerleading and now she is the Captain of her Basketball Cheerleading squad, so she is super stoked. I am stoked for her and proud of all of her accomplishments. As far as Thing 1, her band did awesome this year! I was not a big fan of Marching Band prior to her joining one, but the time and dedication that it takes to make the beautiful music that they do, is so worth the anticipation. I loved their theme and if I can, I will post some pics eventually :)

why do I even bother sometimes

Just another day in my life. My sister obvioulsly thinks dishes will wash themselves. It is now Tuesday and the George Foreman grill is still sitting on the counter, covered in sesame ginger sauce, mushrooms, and steak parts. The sink is full of dishes and she made all of these dirty on Sunday afternoon. She doesn't have a job and she is on Spring Break from school, so there is no reason for them to still be dirty. I find it disgusting and repulsive. She thinks I am being mean to her because I locked the dead bolt last night...Didn't know if she was coming home last night, so I wasn't going to leave the door unlocked and it was already after 11:30pm. I really cannot wait until December comes...I will do anything to be out of here

laughter is the best medicine

Today was absolutely great. Girls were off to school with no problem, carline ran smoothly, and I didn't have to wait in line at the post office to submit paperwork for my passport. Ran 11.98km with Ally at school on the treadmills and relieved a lot of stress.
I ended up getting my girls from school and going out to a very early dinner with Ally. We all laughed uncontrollably over the numerous jokes and impressions they did. My youngest does the "pot hole" commercial with lots of animation that only she can pull off, so I guess we would have been the annoying people having a great time at the restaurant.
Ended up at another friend's house on the way home and spent a few hours hanging out with a very beautiful two month old little lady and a very handsome little 2 year old man. It was fun watching my girls run around and play with little man and then delicately hold little miss so lovingly. Great day hopefully filled with quite a few more :)

disappointment

If this ever gets read, it is no big deal to me...I am just trying to keep from saying things to the people that I really should be saying these things to, but don't want to have anymore reasons to quit speaking to them.
Disappointment runs high lately. I am disappointed with the person my parents had for my sibling. She can be quite nice, but only to those that aren't biologically related to her. All of my life she has been a thorn in my side. Once in a blue moon, she is nice, but most of the time she is just plain mean. We live together for now because we are both finishing our degrees, but when I graduate I will be gone. I will be done in December and I cannot wait. Considering we are adults, it gets old that she calls our mom and complains that I don't help her study...she is an adult, has no learning difficulties, and has always made good grades, but apparently that doesn't matter to our mom. I actually got the third degree for not offering to help her study. The reason why I don't offer is because I am taking 18 credits hours this semester (just like last semester) and I work 24+ hours every Saturday and Sunday. She isn't even employed right now and isn't taking a full course load, but that makes no difference to our mother. But of course, I am the bad child for not helping. I also have two children and they are very involved in activities during the week. She only has one and her ex-inlaws live 4 miles away, so they help with him. I, on the other hand, moved here away from my family and have no one blood related (or obligated) to assist me. I help take her kid to school one day and she takes mine one day and drops them off for church on Wednesdays at the beginning of the semester. The main reason I am disappointed is because of my mother. She is always telling me to be the better person blah blah blah, but doesn't expect my sister to back off or take responsibility for her own actions. I also got "in trouble" because I started running with a friend of mine between classes. Yep, running, you know on a treadmill or out on the open road. Reason I am a bad person for that is because I didn't offer to run with my sister. Umm, that would be because she doesn't run or exercise in any fashion. I don't know where it is written that I have to have every moment of my life revolve around her, but apparently I missed that entire chapter in the sibling book. Wish I could say things are looking up, but they haven't gotten any better in the past 7 months, so I have decided to complain on here once in awhile just because I can.
I know there has to be a better way, but the only way I see is out of her world.